Today was a very simple day, boring nevertheless. Had a hideous sleep, which is very rare. I pride myself on sleep being one of the activities I'm rather extraordinary at, although I'm sure many claim this. My days are filled with texing RM and playing Grand Theft Auto. I'm still waiting for the school to call me and see if and when I can officially enrol and start. Nothing is certain :( and I know my track record is absolutely disgusting.. so I'm not getting my hopes up.
I feel very gutted whenever I look at my school reports. Year 7 and 8 couldn't have been any better, I was getting A+'s in literally every subject. I was the poster child for nerds everywhere. Many people would exclaim that I would be the child who could do anything. That's a lot of pressure to set someone up with. Teachers seen my job prospects as any career with a big pay packet. What happens if I wanted to be a janitor, a car salesperson or a dog walker? Would it be so wrong. Very slowly I stopped caring about my grades and slowly I started to fall. Although it may have been a self-sabotage it was my only way of saying 'stuff you' you teachers, and boy oh boy do I regret it now. Everywhere you go, your report will follow you, it's just the society we live in these days. Life experience and mental ability play second hand to what's stamped onto a piece of paper at the end of an evaluation period. Sad, but evidently the truth. I'm hoping that I receive this chance to change my report, and find myself with a 'ticket to sucess' in whatever career I CHOOSE to seek.
On a completely different note, I just have to mention how happy I am. :) RM makes me smile like no other (gag) and is quite likely one of the sweetest people in the world, or at least in my world (the only one that counts) anyways.
Well there's my rant. I only write it because sillly, sillllly, megavideo told me I've watched 72 minutes. How saddening.
Faites de beaux rêves mes chéries et bonne nuit!
Ashy xx
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